One of my classes was a half semester course so our last meeting was tonight, and the prof very casually pulled me back when everyone was leaving to check what my plans were after school and oh, was i aware of these fellowships his program runs that i could apply for? He’d be happy to write me a reference if I was interested in applying

Except then I needed to double check some info he gave me, which meant emailing him and it turns out someone saying very nice things about you doesn’t actually make emailing them about research opportunities any easier!!!! Going to go lie on my floor and recover instead of doing any homework now. You know, as a very professional academic who’s definitely qualified for this fellowship program would

I am actually not bad at networking it’s just very high stakes for me bc ~institutional systems set up to put me at a disadvantage~

And also because email is the fucking worst

@Satsuma anyways i am simultaneously very good at networking and very bad at networking

i know all the people and gain zero opportunities from them

@Lady oh mood

The think about doing an associates to bachelors is that i spent my first two years charming profs who don’t do research, aren’t allowed to have ta’s, don’t know about most undergraduate opportunities, & will be my last choice for recommendations bc they’ll be two years out of date by the time I need them.

So now I’m tryna speedrun networking my junior year

@Satsuma see in my case i majored in gender studies