genuinely fond memories of my friend telling me "i used to think you hid a lot of yourself away out of insecurity or to avoid being hurt and it took a long time to realize that, you're laying it all on the table but you're just like that"

i finally felt seen

i'm not a complex person. i don't have anything going on beyond the surface level really. if you know me at all you probably know me about as well as anyone does

but

what's there is nice, right? people seem to like it. so that's probably okay

i used to be upset about this but i think it's okay now. certainly easier than the alternative. i am what i am and there's no sense fretting about it

hey it's weird how autistic people so often don't identify with humanity huh. like we have a hard time conceptualizing ourselves as people somehow