i think i don't talk abt "my gender" as an object anymore but instead broadly say "my gender situation" to mean the complex web of how i am perceived, how i intentionally present, how i unintentionally present, what i want my body to change to to experience euphoric transgender bliss, and also when i feel like i have fur and whiskers and fae bullshit (my otherkin shit is my trans shit, the two are inextricable)