sometimes i see someone on here from 2017 and they still have a following and still are well-liked and i wonder why i failed to achieve that
and then i remember i explicitly gave up on this place as a community and have no interest in maintaining social networks with the kinds of people or in the kinds of ways it would take to make that happen
and then i judge them
i used to write fedi software and contribute interesting meta and have thought-provoking discussions with well-known names and faces and believe in the power of community and the power of individuals to help each other and save lives and chart a collective better path forward. then something happened. hmmm