it's always interesting to me how much getting blazed has always felt like a completely ordinary experience for me that i've already had. like it's a little novel, especially bc of the pain relief and my getting A Little Silly, but

idk, it doesn't really impair me or put me in a less capable state of mind, thinking less clearly, etc, than the pain-fueled dissociation does.

it's weird to feel like i've never really been coming at life "sober"